There is time in labor that happens (yes, I'm actually using a birth analogy. It's on my mind a little bit, okay?) called transition. It is this noticeable shift into the second stage of labor when the baby is engaging and things really start happening. The emotions that come at this point are almost out of your control. It is intense. From my own limited experiences, this is the time when I go through these waves of "I can do this. I am so damn close." and "Nope, I'm good. I think I will just sit here and remain pregnant forever." It's the time when my (already amazing) husband steps up and knows exactly what to do and say to not let me give up. It's a gift, really.
This is the best way to describe the season of life we have been in lately. There has been a shifting. A noticeable change in the way we go about our day. It can be intense. There are days I'd rather just give up and others that I actually have some resolve to get through. Regardless, I know who is by my side and that it is worth every moment of it. I've never met a parent that holds their brand new baby in their arms and says, "Yeah, that was so not worth the pain." In fact, it's quite shocking how quickly you forget.
We are doing well, I'm not at all implying that we are in a bad place as a family. It's just life and I'm really quite looking forward to get the next stage. The transition in between stages can be rough but very necessary and every so worth it. I've missed this place and interactions that happen here but sometimes when there is just SO much on your heart, it's impossible to share it. The good thing is, I know what's ahead and so I'm not giving up yet. :)
And don't worry, I will be sure to introduce you to our son very, very soon!